Depressed

Yes, what a surprise I am getting more and more depressed. Its coming up on a year of not hearing from nmother. Next month is Spring Break too. Look at my birthdate and count back, I am a product of spring break and partying. March is hard. I met my ndad in person in March 2005, hard to believe its been almost three years. I remember chatting at an adoption site (a very very proadoption site) and another adoptee came in and asked how our "angst was doing". I work obsessively on my genealogy, making up for lost time. I realize though, I dont really fit in with my nfam's history, I wasnt there to hear the stories. I dont fit in at all with my afam's history either. Growing up I always listened to the stories but I knew chances were slim that my ancestors were on the same ship. So here I am adrift and depressed. How common am I.

Transracial Adoptees aka TRA

I'm not a TRA. In fact I managed to "pass" for being a bio child of my aparents. Therefore, I could chose who to tell or not about the fact I was adopted. Not the case for TRA. I admit I have done this, stare at a family unit where it is clear the kids are adopted. Not to be rude but recognizing one of my fellow adoptees. I cannot imagine having to go through childhood being stared out by strangers though. Or hearing about being "rescued". My abro was adopted from a German orphanage, and he got to here the "we picked you out of all the kids even though you drooled" story shoved down his throat. Why this post? Yet again, the ethics of International Adoption are coming up. Please read this:

http://www.ethicanet.org/item.php?recordid=Identity1&pagestyle=default

Please watch on you tube

Please watch these two videos on youtube.

http://www.youtube.com/iwasstolen